Reinventing Comfort, For Now

There are a hand full of people that I admire, that I truly watch their every move to see what they do next. There is one common denominator that binds them all; a relentless ability to never give up, never show exhaustion and never settle for anything less than perfection.

I was watching an incredible interview with one of said role models over and over recently. At thirty-three years old he changed the world of fashion, nearly over night. Within 10 years he reimagined, redefined, and reinvented the industry putting him at the top of his field. If you Google him today, he turns up more hits than fashion’s godfather, Karl Lagerfeld. While he carries a surname that would insinuate a legacy of American fortune, TOM FORD, built his empire, with his own two hands.

Twenty-five years ago when he met his partner, Richard Buckley, (nearly 20 years his senior), a young bright-eyed Ford told Buckley. “I will be a millionaire by the time I’m 35, running an empire”. He exceeded his goal nearly two years before predicted.

Moderator: “In order to succeed is it TALENT or HARD WORK

[That’s More Important]?”

Ford: “It’s a combination of both, but I would say that it’s slanted toward Hard Work… Slanted towards OBSESSION, There are many designers who have much greater talent than I do, But they may not have my drive, they may not work as hard, they may not have the focus, the desire. But you have to have the talent too, without that you can have all the other things, but if the pair of pants you make don’t make the person’s butt look good, they’re not going to buy them”

“And you have to be really TOUGH”

Since hearing this interview, I have read this statement over and over (and over!) again. Evaluating my abilities on a scale, each a grain of salt trying to balance the other against the former. While I’ve never thought I lacked either, I have to believe that the results that I’ve yielded in my life are just one step behind my empire. One step behind may not sound like a lot, but weighed against my own standards, it feels like an eternity.

The Kryptonite? Comfort.

I live a very blessed life. I take home a handsome paycheck working in the field of my choosing, with the most amazing people on the planet. I have the most incredible support system around me, led and championed by my Partner of seven years who believes in me more than I do myself. I have the support of an entire army or friends and family that cheer from sidelines far and wide, all over the world waiting to sing my praises at every little accomplishment I achieve. It makes it easy, very easy, to bask in such light. While I take none of it for granted, I know from history that if I don’t continue to earn it, it will be gone.

So what about this prison of comfort?

It’s a lovey place (or so it appears) where I don’t really have to watch what I eat or how much exercise I do. Where I can choose to spend money a little more frivolously than if I were sinking my resources back into my business. Where choosing to watch TV or playing games on my devices take precedence over writing the script of all scripts, or where developing and studying characters that have the ability to inspire people to achieve their own dreams gets lost behind the excuse of working a sixteen hour day. It’s a place where I barter with myself so skillfully that I convince myself “You Deserve It”.

What an illusion.

What I deserve is to run a multi-million-dollar conglomerate company that supports all facets of my creativity, servicing the maximum amount of people possible, balanced against philanthropy -not for the sake of making me look more humble and gracious- but by making the world a better place.

Time and time again, I have self-reflected and written in stone plans to make concrete steps toward achieving this success, but time and time again, comfort sets in and I find myself back at where I began.

I write this, not because I need any pity, or shoulder to cry on. I write this, not because I have a natural inclination toward self-deprication. I write this because maybe this time I will find the strength to reinvent comfort as a place where MAKING MIRACLES happen through hard work and effort IS COMFORT, where sitting on the couch sipping a martini is not the reward, but the punishment for missing the opportunity to change.

Let’s see how this goes. Thank you for reading, and by the grace of G-d and my hard work I hope you can turn back here regularly to watch my progress.

Playing Catch Up #rollerjournal

Who would you like to catch up with?

When I was a kid -early elementary school age- I had a friend whose name was Billy. All my life, I have had a natural affinity toward women and girls, to socialize with and develop a kinship towards. Billy was the exception. He was a boys boy, Building things with his hands, like tree houses and forts, playing Cowboys and Indians (I always the Indian!) and heroic Superheros, in which times, Billy never had a single flinch that I preferred the role of Wonder Woman over his first choice hero Superman. As a matter of fact, he quite encouraged it. We were different, in so many way, yet so complimentary in many others. His favorite band was (country) Alabama, mine was Culture Club. He liked meat and potatoes, I liked spaghetti and broccoli and we never faught only ever arguing about which movie we would ask my mom to take us to see next. I always won that battle. We shared transformers and collected He-Man action figures and I preferred the spotlight, as he preferred the stage hand. In third grade, Billy moved to a neighboring town too far away to commute by bicycle. His parents weren't willing to drive the commute to drop him off for a day, and mine were in the dark about his whearabouts. We stayed in touch via telephone for about 3 months. Neither of us being one for chit-chat and small talk (we used to talk about what we would do one day when we became presidents, together we would run for office, as one!) our communication subsided to none, and our lives officially went separate ways. Many years later his older sister (who would often baby sit us) spotted me while at the mall one day. I was 14, and in probably the most awkward stage of my life; fat, with braces and acne ridden. She rushed over to me and asked me "Are you from Winter Springs? Is your name Bobby" ... I replied yes, but could not place who she was, due to the fact that she was now practically a woman. "I am Janet, Billy's sister" she exclaimed. She was so happy to see me, as I her. We embraced. Chatted for a minute or two and She told me that Billy often spoke about me and wonderd how I was doing. "why didn't he think to call, my phone number has never changed" - I thought to myself. "He is the one who moved" I told her to tell him that I said hello and to please give him my number. I secretly prayed for a reunion with him, as my life at the time lacked many guy-friends. As it would turn out, that very moment he was with his Mom shopping THERE, in another part of the mall at the same time. They were to all meet at a common spot around 8:30 before the mall closed. She suggested I meet them as well, that Billy would be so excited to see me. I was so nervous, and I couldn't even tell myself why. Then Billy showed up. He was tall, lean, and incredibly handsome. He was also clearly very uncomfortable with me. He tried to pretend at first that he didn't remember who I was, then, as it "dawned" on him, his response was "oh hey" turning to his Mom, insisting that he needed to get home to study for an exam. I was devastated. Someone who I looked up to as a friend, a brother even, had completely dismissed me. But I got over it and went on with my awkward self. I grew out of that phase and embraced who I was shortly after. Comming into my own I realized that the universe has special ways of bringing people in and out of each others lives, perfectly. I'd love to catch up with him one day. I think it would be so fulfilling to connect the dotts from our childhood into our adult lives. One day, maybe. Maybe not. Either way, I'm thankful for the childhood memories. #RollerJournal

What would you like to change about today? #RollerJournal

What would you like to change about today? Change. Nothing. Now. What's in the past is done. It's heralded as what I needed then. No "wow" factor, but guess that's objective to me being a "taker" On and on and on ... Give it to me. Bring it on, Burning karma to get rid of it forlong! I wouldn't change a thing. Right now, as my phone rings From my agent, Telling me ... "it won't be long" Reactive and reductive. I know better, Not to wait for no-one! And on and on and on and on an on an on and on and on ... #RollerJournal

With Intention,
Daniel Bobby Tuttle

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What can you hear right now? #RollerJournal

What can you hear right now? The wind is blowing. There are whispers from the Angels, encouraging me. Like little cheerleaders. Propeller hellicopter in the distance, Grumbling and choping, making sure that we don't get this shot. Of course, because it's the LAST shot of the day. Just 2 more hours til I can hear that sweet sound of manhattan taxis and martini shakers and MDNA previews. Those are music to my ears. I hear "checking the gate" "that's a wrap" ... In my head. I also hear the CHA-Ching of the cash register as I clock a 14 hour day. #RollerJournal

With Intention,
Daniel Bobby Tuttle

Go to www.payingintention.com to see the latest episode of my new Podcast, Paying Intention

What impressed you today? #RollerJournal

What impressed you today? God impressed me today. How the magic and the wonder of this magnificent force of creation can turn such ugly days, into glorious ones. In the blink of an eye. I am impressed at my own resilience to withstand the balagon of ugliness in my head. How angry I can be? Nobody knows. Nobody even assumes, because GOD Has given me a fierce game face. I am impressed by the process. I am impressed with my patience towards it. I am impressed that someone who has never really given me the time of day, sat with me at lunch. He asked me "what do you do?" I hope your NOT an actor he said. "because it would be such a waste to have such a handsome face stuck behind the camera, without the film rolling. He said "your the best stand-in ever, and in such high demand. You're fucked, if you don't hop the train and switch tracks, you're gonna be doing this for the rest of your life. Which is fine, if all your looking for is your blue-cross and blue-shield" I'm impressed, that I restricted.
#RollerJournal

Finding My "Intention" Again / "The Big Bang"

Last year I was inspired to create a webseries called "Paying Intention". The series is about inspiring people to follow their dreams, by giving them practical tools to apply along their road to success. One of the key components of the show is introducing the audience to someone who currently is doing just that - Living their dream! The second half of 2011 was incredibly busy for me. "Paying Intention" got placed on the back burner, UNTIL NOW!!!

While we are working on the re-edits for the next full episode, premiering NEXT WEEK (About health and fitness) I was anxious to share something FUN with you to help celebrate the new year. I borrowed some inspiration from my dear friend and regular food and beverage contributor to the show, Eric Lundy, by creating a new specialty cocktail called THE BIG BANG. With 2012 around the corner, this Malaysian Ginger Curry Infused Rum cocktail will provide quite the splash at your New Years Eve gathering. Below, you can watch the short 3 min segment that was produced entirely on my iPad!

Included in the next episode of PAYING INTENTION; an interview with my Bikram Yoga Instructor and proprietor to the Bikram Yoga Manhattan studio, Mr. Raffael Pacitti; a short segment about my new fascination with Juice Cleansing and, as always, friend and spiritual mentor, Mr. Barry Lipscomb (www.barrylipscomb.com) stops by to give us a healthy dose of spiritual wisdom on the topic of health & fitness.

Happy New Year to everyone and may 2012 bring with it incredible change and transformation toward global peace and unity.

If you would like to see any of the previous episodes of Paying Intention visit our website at www.payingintention.com

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